Need A Little Love?

Today I've been thinking about how sometimes I really want to love. . . whether it be a friend, family member, or God. . . I find myself trying to make all these efforts. I mean the unconditional kind, that NO MATTER WHAT. . . I respond in love. . . whether someone loves my back or not. I'm finding that I'm not very good at this. That I may be able to pull a smile off on the surface, but the depths of my heart do not match up. . . this is extremely saddening to me. In and of Rachel May by myself, I am unable to truly love. . . ouch. . .

I recall also that WE love God, because HE FIRST loved us. That means even in order to truly love God He has to love us first. . . it takes God to love God. How crazy is that? Oddly enough it takes a lot of pressure off me to try to conjure up some kind of sentiment when I don't have it in me. I find the most tangible way to experience love is just to simply tell God, "I want to experience His love. . . I want it to be real. . . God, if my heart is closed or angry about something and that is why I can't experience you right now, please help me because I truly want You and your love." Jesus is pretty drawn to brokenness and honesty. . . and since the Bible says that God so LOVED the WORLD that He gave His only Son. . . I can know He loves me!! (and everyone else who is in the WORLD).

If you feel like you could use a little love and are willing to be vulnerable with God, just talk with Him. . . He loves to talk with us. . . and if you're mad. . . tell him about it . . . He can handle it :)